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A Reiki Community Who Turns their Back

Article by Tammy Hatherill, Reiki Master

Some of you may have been following my articles and if that’s the case you will have read a story about a fall out with one Reiki Master, in my home town in 2013, which has had a cascading affect with her talking to her own Reiki Master who we’ll call Jane (the one who taught me level 1 and level 2) and thus a flow on affect from there. Even though I never voiced this woman’s name after the fall out (my belief and integrity that the disagreement was between her and me), she slandered me throughout the Reiki community.

For me it was ‘obvious’ that I had been spoken about and cut off because of the abilities I possess, being clairsentient I could ‘feel’ it. With my claircognisance I just “knew” it, and with my higher self known as Tamnisha (a viking warrior woman) telling me, and passing along inside information. It was horrible and uncomfortable for me to know, that even though the disagreement was with one woman, the entire Reiki community whom I used to belong, now had a one sided story, and I was condemned. The feeling was physical as well as emotional. So I dug deep and looked for my lessons in all of it. Everything has a lesson. Every horrible event gives us cause to grow and expand if we look it as a lesson, rather than the end of the world.

I had one Master who runs a naturopathy business, throw out my business cards. She holds the cards of most of the people who have completed their Reiki through Jane. I gave her some of my cards, and then after this fall out, on my next visit, my cards were missing. I emailed her on my return home, asking that if she didn’t want them, she was free to return them. Her response was she had given them all out. Not true! This was a blatant lie, because the amount given to her, far exceeded the number of the others still on display. These others were closer friends to the naturopath than me and so those cards would go first. She was telling me a blatant untruth.


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I meditated on this and received the same information. What confounded this truth was the ‘over compensation’ that occurred afterward. This woman kept asking me for my cards, to give out. My back ground is intelligence and investigations, having worked for years dealing with people telling lies and untruths, and how they over compensate when caught out. So I KNOW without a doubt, she had thrown out my cards. Thus, my fall out with one Reiki Master in the Usui Shiki Ryoho system, had permeated through to the others of that group. This was just the beginning for me. How can they think this is loving and caring or following the basic principles of Reiki?
I have mentioned in a few comments of other articles, how I attended an unrelated course about Angel frequency and angelic stuff a few months later. Well this was a huge eye opener for me. Spirit was trying to keep me away. As I had a sick feeling about attending. My intuition was warning this course wasn’t for me. But I over rode the feeling and attended anyway. On the first day, I was an hour late. This was my error as I truly thought it commenced at 10am on the Saturday as it was on the Sunday, and so I texted the facilitator to say ‘where is everyone’ when no one was at the meeting point? I never heard from her, so I found my way to the room, and snuck in.

Wowzers, I walked into a room of emotion and pain. Being clairsentient I FEEL things so strongly and as everyone was seated in a circle, discussing some very painful experiences; I walked into a wall of pain. The only available place to sit was next to the naturopath who I suspected lied to me. I snuck in and quietly sad down. Then about five minutes later that facilitator (who was staying with Jane during her visit) says in a somewhat unpleasant voice, “Ohh can someone go outside and get Tammy, she’s still sitting by the pool area.” She had not noticed me creep in and sit down. Her tone and voice was disturbing to me. She must have realised, because a little later she apologised for how she spoke.

So, a great start to this course. I was uncomfortable all day, because Jane, the master whom taught me level 1 and level 2 was also present, and was the only one sitting on a chair, the rest of us were sitting on the floor. She was the only one who didn’t fully participate in the course, and it still irked me that she talks right over the top of people. This had been something I was aware of, from the moment I met her, that she had the tendency to speak right over the top of others.

Dreading the next day of the course, I sent Reiki to the future. I sent Reiki to the past. On the day of the course, I bathed in Reiki symbols and I, set the symbols over the doorway of the course, so when I walked through I was being Reikied as I entered.

It was this second day, that was the most painful and most hurtful. I overheard Jane and the naturopath talking about using the power of Reiki symbols to keep me from going to the naturopath for treatment. This was devastating. Well they got their wish, but it wasn’t the power of the Reiki symbols that kept me from returning to her for my health needs, it was the fact that A) I had been lied to, and B) I heard them talking about wanting to keep me away. They were also discussing how they couldn’t understand why I kept attending appt’s because the Reiki should have kept me away. How extremely hurtful.

The pain didn’t stop there. I then overheard Jane, the naturopath and another Reiki Master, talking and discussing an upcoming Reiki Master Meditation night. There was a new woman to our area, who was a Master but from another lineage. They were considering if they should invite her along or not. I was sitting only a few feet from them. I was not invited.

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Has anyone ever been through ostracisation and being left out, because of a fall out with one person? That permeates through a group? It’s a horrendous and horrible feeling. YES I can put my hand up and say, that during the disagreement I behaved un-reiki like in my reaction. However I didn’t continue it along, I did not speak this woman’s name, I did not slander her, I did not tell lies about harassment and stalking as she did about me. All I had done for this woman, was assist her with learning the Tarot (she was a student of mine), introduced her to her fiancé, and introduced her to a friend of mine, so she could apply for a job with him. Which she got!! I had done all these wonderful and life changing things for her, and over one disagreement and one display of anger from me, and she slandered me, spoke untruths and changed my entire Reiki experience. What a lesson for me!!! I feel good though that everything good in her life, I played a significant part. I don’t hold grudges as this woman has lesson to learn as well.

So the past year has been about learning and growing for me. It’s been interesting to say the least. What’s happened for me though is my business has exploded in ways I never realised!!! It has grown and expanded beyond my wildest imagination. I am international now, and involved in using my journalism to write articles, I’ve got a regular gig on the radio, and now another international opportunity has come up.

With this opportunity, I contacted most of the local Reiki and spiritual, and healthy businesses to see if they wished to become involved. Even though some of them had hurt me beyond belief I wasn’t holding grudges and I wasn’t angry or upset any longer. I had learned my big lesson, and that was I was more an independent operator and wasn’t interested in groups or cliques and I wasn’t supposed to fit in with them. However I was still willing to invite them to join this opportunity.

One responded with great enthusiasm, and it was the perfect time for me to bring up the feelings of the past. I wrote the following (I’ve only changed the names to protect identity):

“Reading your email has lifted my spirits as I’ve never addressed this with you, but will do so now. It really, and truly hurt me, when you, the naturopath and Jane, were discussing and talking about an upcoming Masters Meditation and were considering inviting a new person (to Darwin) along to it, even though she was a master from another lineage. This was at Tracey’s course last year. I’ll never forget sitting a few feet from the three of you, over hearing it, and being sad at my ostracisim (and knowing the probably reason for it). Just to let you know, I’ve dealt with the issues but am surprised with how some of you have behaved towards me, since the fall out with one. End of story. I’m not going to carry it on as I’ve dealt with it, but never openly discussed the hurt caused by you and the others, especially when I never have and never will hurt so cruelly through ostracisation. This is not written to cause you pain, but just to highlight I’ve lived with it for nearly 12 months and can now thank everyone for the wonderful lessons (not at the time though).. listening to the three of you openly discussing this new master to Darwin and debating whether you should invite her or not, and knowing I was sitting there and ‘not good enough’ for your group, was hard.”

She responded that she was aware of Jane having an issue with me, which she said was caused by an incident that caused consternation, that she was sorry for the hurt she caused me unintentionally and that she loved me , however she felt the energy has now shifted between us, and she no longer wished to participate and unsubscribed from my emails. Feel free to make up your own minds about this. I know how and what I feel about it.


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Over the past few weeks I have tried to contact Jane the original Master, for some feedback and assistance with obtaining more information about non-traditional symbols that she teaches, and also to gain some clarification on the consternation she feels towards me. However my contact has been ignored. So I can’t clear that up or obtain answers. I will resort to meditation and using Reiki to once again help me through this.

So the moral of this article is that even though people are trained as Reiki Practitioners and Reiki Masters, massive disagreements and difference of opinions can and do occur. I’m not perfect by any means (and I’ve never claimed to be), however I know my morals and ethics. I would never ever treat a fellow human being in the manner I have been treated, REGARDLESS of any fallout or history. I never decide my opinion on another person based on stories from another. I get to know a person myself and base my opinions on that. I would never intentionally be cruel or exclude. I am proud of myself that at the time I never ever mentioned the woman’s name whom I had the fall out with, and feel that her need to talk and express her truth to others, naming me reflects her integrity.

It’s been a wonderful learning for me and even though it’s been painful and very very emotional, the lessons are profound. I am able to stand with my head held high and know I’ve learned all I need to from them, and how I would never treat my students and people in general. They need to feel proud with their actions and behaviors as well and if they do in this regard, I think that speak volumes.

Reiki any situation that hurts. Self Reiki and self-care is important. I haven’t lost faith in Reiki, as I feel my own business is booming and exploding for a reason and this is what I concentrate on. If I was still involved with that particular group, perhaps things wouldn’t be going so well for me. Everything happens for a reason.

I hold no grudges, no resentment and no ill feeling. I forgive them all and forgave long ago. They have lessons to learn as well. However I will always, always speak my truth and speak about how things ‘feel’ for me and if people don’t like my reality, that’s OK. They don’t have to. Always keep true to yourself, and please don’t cave into peer pressure. Make up your own minds using your own experience and evidence, and please, please don’t be cruel to people.

Big warm hugs to everyone.

Love, light and harmony.

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Tammy Hatherill

Tammy Hatherill

Tammy Hatherill is the owner/operator of Tammy’s Tarot and Healing. She is a well known Tarot and and Reiki Master/Teacher, and shared her love of tarot for over 12 months with a regular radio segment on 104.1 Territory FM. Tammy is the author of two books: Trapped Behind Bars and The Diary of a Fallen Angel, and is a journalist for numerous organisation: Reiki Rays, Tiny Buddha, Personal Growth and Hypnotherapy Journal Australia. You can find her website at www.tammystarotandhealing.com
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  • muzna September 18, 2014, 5:34 pm

    Don’t know how to say it but the hurt still seems to be there. It seeps from the written word.
    One word for the JANE and party…. they do not believe in Reiki… other wise they would have accepted that if YOU were present in that course despite their giving Reiki, it had to be for the highest good. And yes it makes one feel even more close to this very light we have as a gift…which can never work for the negative feelings of anyone. We have been told this that nobody can harm anybody using Reiki is so correct.

  • Manuela September 18, 2014, 5:58 pm

    Wow – I read a lot of stuff on the internet about Reiki and have never felt the need to comment before but just wow!

    Yeah, yeah I know that we all have lesson to learn from the things that happen in our lives and all that but what a truly awful experience for you. You would think that this kind of behaviour would have ended at primary school and I would certainly not have expected it from grown women who have chosen to work within the spiritual and healing community. I think what stuns me the most is that these people would even consider trying to use Reiki to actively attempt to stop someone doing something simply because they took issue with them. Of course it didn’t work!!!

    We’re all just here trying to do our best and I hope that like you, they can move past this having learned something!

    Well done for not lowering your vibrations to their levels, well done for maintaining your integrity and I am happy for you that you have come through it having learned the lessons you needed to learn.


    • Colleen October 18, 2014, 8:09 pm

      Manuela, beautifully written. I couldn’t have written anything different as I myself felt exactly the same when I read the article.

      Namaste Colleen

  • Ronfladonf September 18, 2014, 7:13 pm

    Good day.

    I don’t want to be rude with you or something. I only write things as I feel them.

    As an empath, I can say you you still hold a kind of anger/regrets… about this story. I can feel it so when I read these words.
    Don’t worry, you’re human after all ;-D

    You write : “I hold no grudges, no resentment and no ill feeling. I forgive them all and forgave long ago.”
    I really believe you have forgiven them, but I believe you still carry the emotion weight attached to this wound.

    I think it is an opportunity for you to learn how to transmute emotion weight.
    I believe Reiki can ease the process, but I think you have to “dive” in this pain and let it guide you through the lesson to learn from it. Of course you will have to feel it very deeply, but if you are ready to do this (be careful, if the pain is deep and strong, it is very demanding and you will have to be stronger than it and very stable/grounded), you will be able to release it.

    PS : sorry for my poor english : I’m French. Hope I’m understood though. 😀

  • S September 18, 2014, 10:51 pm

    Nothing new there – groups of any kind always attract sheep. Move on. Kindness in all things

  • Shiya September 19, 2014, 12:10 am

    You may discover somewhere along your path that these woman, this community and this experience have been your greatest teachers. Our experiences in life are nothing more than echoes of ourselves.

  • Tammy Hatherill - Reiki Master September 19, 2014, 1:15 am

    Thanks everyone for your honest and wonderful feedback. It’s most definitely been an experience and one that I am still learning from. Ronfladonf, yes you are correct. Although I did forgive long ago, the more recent stuff that has come up, flared things for me again. I feel spirit gives us opportunities to realise if we have really and truly overcome things or not. So this recent ‘event’ is just a way for me to release things even more. Like an onion, there are layers and I’m working through them. Thanks again everyone for your feedback and comments. Love, light and harmony.. Tammy xxxx

  • aislinnmooney October 18, 2014, 7:18 am

    Thanx for sharing this story of your experiences Tammy….for me writing of our hurts is a fantastic part of healing forgiving and letting go however whom we choose to share the writings with can cancel out the power of healing associated with the writing…..a bit like not speaking the truth about our feelings on a situation to a persons face but transmitting our feelings through our interactions with the person and others…..I have come to know that by embracing the belief that every single interaction within a situation and circumstance is an opportunity for teaching and learning by all involved greater good always prevails…..perhaps your biggest role in this whole situation was actually as a teacher and not a learner?…..thank you for the opportunity to share my view…..Aislinn

  • Mary October 18, 2014, 1:20 pm

    I went through a similar situation. I tried at first to push past my intuition and continue the relationship but it truly was not where I should of been. I just left it alone and I know there will be a time when we will have to come across this again but when that happens I will be ready to deal with it with light and love. Hope everything works out for you.

  • Liz October 19, 2014, 5:59 am

    I am sorry that you were the target of such unkind and ego-based behaviour. I was fortunate enough to take all of my levels (I am a master also) with a wonderful master teacher who instilled in us that “you can’t do Reiki wrong”. It is very much about intention, always. I am glad that you are insightful about the situation and healing from it. Love and light.

  • Rick October 20, 2014, 12:45 am

    I read your story. something like that happened to me. I got my 1 and 2 then my master told me to do lots of work on people. I did. I even worked on people at nursing homes for 2 years for free. and all this time, she kept telling me and others I was not ready. I had already paid for the master class. I kept up the good work and even worked on the nurses at the nursing homes. Then started to look for a NEW master. not from around my home state or country. someone far away. I started all over again, did 1, 2 and 3. I got my master certificate. I was still working on people. Then I talked to My master, the one that had been talking behind my back telling every one that I was Doing Every thing wrong, I want my money back. I told her and every one about my master cert! She had a cow! Then every one in the circle of masters in my town said you do the work, you have been doing the work, and you just ran with it. she did not even slow you down. it is good to help people. it is good to be in a group that loves you. yes I forgave but the lesson is learned. Im sad you had to go through what you went through. but we are stronger from it. and when you hear your group start to gossip… YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO! Namaste.

  • Reiki-Chris October 20, 2014, 4:13 am

    Everyone is concerned with forgiving the offender. Please forgive yourself. Life teaches us as we go, never forget to find the lesson(s) in each experience. When we do so, why not do it with a positive outlook, that way we can encourage ourselves and grow through positivity, not negativity.
    We are all unique, love your uniqueness.

  • Kathy November 5, 2014, 4:28 pm

    I feel your pain. Though the circumstances are different, I had been ostracized once when my roommate started seeing a married woman, and used our home for their affair. They told lies about me to discredit me in case I blabbed about their affair. It was the worst six months in my life. I was treated like pariah by many people I had thought were my friends. Things said about me were very hurtful, and blatant lies. Eventually, the truth came out and I was vindicated. However, it changed me, and it took a long time of healing to begin to trust anyone again.

  • Zoe November 19, 2014, 1:19 pm

    These people are using Reiki energy incorrectly, it wouldn’t work to keep anyone out – ever. It’s purpose is to heal – that is all (everything).

    I think you found out in a hurtful and childish way that these people are not people you need to be associated with.

    Do you know why you kept going back for more, when these people clearly didn’t want you (justified or not)? I’ve asked myself that question in relation to different situations, and always there is something I needed from that experience, until I learned, I didn’t move on…

    Keep working in your integrity, and on your own path. Namaste

  • Kikihana Lee August 15, 2018, 4:49 pm

    Please do not repeatedly post this article.
    This is not Reiki practice, this is about personal feud. Out of what intent was this article written? Gaining likes and sympathy? Even though the name was not revealed, with all th clues and hints so cogently provided, someone in her world may pick up as well. I personaly think a Reiki practitioner should have a bigger heart than back-firing publicly at someone who did not have chance to defend herself.
    I wish Reiki Rays could adapt to better screening on the articles posted. I enjoy reading here, please don’t turn it into revenge ground.
    Sorry too see so many Reiki practioners targeting and criticizing at a person unknown and a story untestified.

  • Jane September 4, 2018, 5:06 am

    I’m sure you have heard the poem: Some people come into our lives for a Season; Some people come into our lives for a Reason, and Some people become lifelong friends… I have lived long enough now to have the experience of moving past “forgiveness” into understanding …and letting go.

    My husband had an affair with a lady many years ago – and at the time I felt totally betrayed, and justifiably angry – hateful might be a good word – now I realize that she was just a young mother, with no job skills trying to survive… I not only forgave the situation – but saw it in a whole new light … I could easily welcome her into my home today – knowing that she was a great teacher in my path — our lessons are learned by the experiences we came to have –

    Thank God you learned compassion for others, through this mirror … I am certain that you will always be as aware of other’s feelings as you are of your own. Namaste

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